From Where I Stand

OK, so every three months I get the itch to write. I guess that's going to be typical for me. I think it's because so much stays the same as time goes on. And yet, I know things are changing. I guess I'm just not able to see it from where I stand.

From where I stand (or sit) I can see God working in me most days and then there are days where I fall apart and want desperately to feel the way I did the day before. I most recently read a book called "So Long Insecurity, You've Been a Bad Friend To Me" by Beth Moore. It "change my life" at first, and then I started to forget what I had read and what it all meant to me. I have to go back daily and look through the dog eared and underlined pages to get some of that back.

A couple of weeks ago I was prophesied over. It was extremely edifying and encouraging and it was also stressful in some way as well. This experience has also changed me. I know that God sees everything and knows my heart. He wants to fill me up and much as I want to be filled. He wants me to go directly to Him for everything. He also wants me to trust that what He has said to me is real. WOW!!!

I can see God is changing Jim. Yesterday was mother's day and he made reservations for lunch at a great restaurant on the beach in Asbury Park, NJ. It was a bit windy and kinda cold, but we spent some time on the boardwalk and on the beach when we first got there. Then we went for a ride in one of my favorite towns, Ocean Grove. The architecture and quaint historical tent dwellings are eye candy for me as is the ocean. After the feast for the eyes, we went to feast...literally. The food was great. Adam had a pizza - the "best pizza" he ever had. Michael had spaghetti, no sauce. I had chicken catchetori and Jim had penne with sweet sausage. It was all wonderful! We topped it off with ice cream on the boardwalk and headed back home after the kids had one last romp in the sand. It was a great day trip...thanks, honey!

So now we are almost done with "the day after". And today was a B-A-D day. I had my second of five Hyalgen injections in my knees (yes, that's plural knee-s and yes, it hurts!). At least I know I'll be feeling much better tomorrow. I'm just praying that this will help eliminate some of the pain that I have been experiencing. I figure, I cannot get rid of this fibromyalgia pain, but maybe the pain from my chondramalacia patella can be solved, Lord willing!

I just have to keep remembering...there's always tomorrow and...God's got it.